Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Why?
Why does this kind of thing happen again and again...
I should have thought things even deeper and through before i do things...
Now, it have become like this... I've to be a great lier...
hahaha... feel like crying...
When I am happily talking to her, I'm being stab by her... I thought she's special... I thought... But nope... she's the same... same as the rest...
It's hard to be a boss... can I surrender? can I run? I can't...... wtf...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Naive.Still naive.What the hell.. Lie to me..
I feel soo naive that I feel like slapping myself.
It's ok. Once bitten , twice shy.
I should stop my kindness and believe what my mum and sister say: That you are as cunning as a fox.
It's time I grow up and think complicated.
But is it something I wanted to? Maybe in business world.. No choice I guess... Or else I'll get stab again.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Trust.Something which I don't need to have on me. What a heavy load.
To get rid of all the metal chains you have on me, I don't wish you to trust me.
It's ironic that we need trust, yet I wish you don't have trust in me.
Sorry for being selfish, as I long to be free...
Sorry for struggling free, as I know you yearn for freedom...
Yet my dear... to me ... trust is a pressure.. a push to aid me to jump over the cliff even when I don't want to... I hope you understand... I hope you don't..
I sick and tired of being pushed around in directions that I don't know of and perhaps, don't want to... so, it's time for me to struggle free from the heavy chains which held me for years and run towards the unknown future...
Maybe, I'll die...
Maybe, I'll survive...
But no matter what happens, it's something I've chosen... something which I cannot complain for good or for worst... So please... let me run forward and bang the thick solid walls...
Perhaps, I'll learn how to climb over it:)
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
ohya... people...
If you like tawinese drama... and fareheit... this is a good show to watch for...
翻滾吧!蛋炒飯 aka rolling love...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rgyPXpnnRSMshit... slacking like mad.. no mood to study...
Wah... How?! I gotta prepare lots of sweets and tidbits for revision... heehee... but not enough money to use this month... cause just spend 120 on my contact lenses...
No choice... without contact lense... I don't look great.. though I'm not really great with them on, but better to have them then without...
Basically, I'm a vain queen... hard to believe eh?! haha...
I would wash my face 3 to 4 times a day... apply at least 1 face mask a day( 1 or 2 types depending on my mood)...
at least 1 body scrub a week and hair serum must be applied everytime I go out...
Maybe still ok lar... but if I don't take care... My break out may come anytime.. haizx.. no choice...
During my school days, I used to have bad complexion.. but, it's something I cannot chose.. I cannot stop it from popping..
Now, as I get older... it's more controlled le.. but still... have to take care... If not for work, I would be taking naps everyday... haha... water and sufficient sleep is essential for healthy skin...
esp problems like eye bags or dark circles are hard to get rid of... sooo people, try your best to prevent it from happen (though it has... haha..)
Once again... offline le... nitez...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Went to see Wen's blog today... just wanna say something......... Pls get a C box so that i can tag u babe... heeehee... anyway, i guess spelling yr name wrong is my trademark... lol... joking...
Anyway, long time nvr see you le as well as the others , sooo kinda miss you... hope generally, things are fine... if not fine, u can spam yr blog.. haha... I don't think you will mind... haha.. joking..
Love you guys... muackies...
And from today onwards....... my hubby will be busy with NDP til August............
too bad, they don't need extra people to help out....... boo.... but nvm... dear dear... you noe that I'll be right here for you...
When you need someone to talk to... I'm here (anytime.. 24 hrs..)
When you wanna cry, my shoulders available ( haha.. I don't think you'll need mine..)
When you need me... Just call me:)
When you miss me... Msg me:>
When you love me... Just Kiss me:O
Oh my... So shy... heehee... I go do revision le... i guess... nitez nitez..
Fated to love you epi 5 is finally out le... Yeah! All people should watch, Highly recommanded! They Kissed again 2 should watch too.... I watch til epi 15...... Sooo touching at the part where Hao Mei save Yu shu's dog which is knocked down by the car, misses the chance to go to the same high school with him... Yu Shu dunnoe and thought she overslept and missed the entrance exams. When he confronted her, she said sorry that she overslept and did not say the whole truth... When Yu Shu found out the truth from the passing by vet which save the dog the other day...
He run to Hao Mei and apologised to her... and tell her that they will go to the same university together( sobz... soo touching..)
A Muz watch, OK?!
Been spending my these few weekends with hubby...... went shopping and stuff... And how time flies...which is good, cause we're not bored and he'll be busy with the next few weekends with army......( army is my love rival now!)
Today is a rest rest day... Gone to a short working life then back to slackers life... wahaha.. haven done much studying(Oh No!)
Anyway... finally manage to get my C box le!!! Yeah!!
Ke Wei....... You're the best brother man.... May you have a blissful life...
I'm a computer idiot and my brother help me with it... he's a great guy...
Anyway, Cinderella is my favourite fairytale... so in the end, I chose this wall paper... Hopefully, it'll add more dreamy content to your eyes.. heehee...
Last but not least, I wanna go sleep lo... sayonara folks...
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
You`re in my arms And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together And when I`m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes byRomantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know All that I wanted to hold you So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you`re beside me and look how far we`ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We`re so close To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let`s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close So close And still so far
~ from 'Enchanted' the movie...
I remember I got ditch because of this movie... But ironically, I love this movie...
It mocks at fairy tales, yet it has happy endings.. perhaps itself is another fairytale of a different story being told...
I had bad memories, so does he...
Yet let's us replace it with good memories yea?!
We are So Close together... So close, yet soo far to the Happy Ending..
Will we hold on til then?
And I would wonder, are we the prince and princess meant to be or the princess and lawyer meant to be..
which ever it is, the fact is
I love you.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Wah....... It's raining now...
My favourite weather compared to the sun...
Somehow, hidding in the midst of the rain become something I feel comfortable with..
When drops of it dripped down my face, I would wonder is it tears or is it rain...
'Walking in the rain..lalala...' a cool mixture of sorrow and comfort.. If rain could never stop, how nice would it be.. Then I'll be able to lie in the comfort of my blankets and sorrow.. hoping that I'll be drown in my dreams and fatique..
Hopefully,when I wake up, it'll wash away unwanted dirt and everything will remain as clean and pure as they were..
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Yawnz... Awfully tired...
I just seemed not to get enough sleep...
I've slept full.. from 12am to 9am... But, I still feel tired...
In many of my recent dreams, I dreamt of him... and him.. and her... people who I should remember and people I don't...
In my life, another voice become my lullaby which I cannot missed it.. Hearing his voice become a wonderful thing just like any other days... which I recall helping me to get through many difficult nights.. and gradually, it become part of my life...
I've guess I've notice many little details which I've missed.. or I've taken granted for.. And in case I don't remember as time goes by, I've to note it down here:
-You Have a Great Hubby( although not yet)
-And He has a soothing voice( don't ever tell him, and in case you see, please don't tell me)
-I have many great friends... especially Silly, xui wen, yi ru and jia qi...( I love you guys..)
-I started taking notice of my friend's life....( I've not been a veri good friend in the past)
-Most of my friends care about me... although they don't say...( esp. qi jie, farmy, xui wen, silly)
OK. So in case i don't remember.. I'll read through this blog entry.
