Saturday, March 27, 2010
I am tired. Veri tired.
Project deadlines is catching up.N I have continuous meetings for the past few weeks.
No time to be emo le.
No time to think about him le.
In case u r wondering y, but waiting for someone means that you will still be thinking abt the person mentalli.
Its time for me to realli face my work, n shelve him aside...
Till then, I'll clear off my work~
Adiyoz..
I had a dream last night... ...
I dream that Me n Evan are having fun together... He piggyback me as we go endlessly...
We talk non-stop... N is laughing veri happily...
They often say that dreams is your inner desire... N often, its the opposite of the reality, That's y its called dreams...
When I wake up, n i look at my mobile phone... there are no missed call or sms-es...
Its just a dream...
N, its time for me to wake up.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Dear...
Today I have a long day... Realli realli long... super tiring...
loaded with project meetings n lectures...
N surprising, I click well with my new grp mates n the project is nicely done..'kind of'
In any case, I saw yr nick that u got owned by yr own grp mates... hopefully, everything's alright... I know u r good with yr words... but hopefully, everything is not too bad...
Realli dozing off... Zzzz...n tiring... nitez...
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Dear Dear...
Today, while I am packing my room... I happen to see the pink colour heart shape box u give me for our first valentine...
Inside the box, there is one hundred paper cranes which you fold it yrself, n lots of pink heart shape soft toy, as well as a hand-made card...
As I read the time, I realise how fast time passes, n how fast our situation change...
N as I see the video you make for me, as well as listen to the song you written for me... I can't help it but cry silently in the night... afraid to let hear it...
Memories flood by, I miss you... I realli do... Just let me linger in the past a little longer... a little more, before I continue with my current journey...
Its been realli happy for the past 2 years isn't it? :)
Evan Goh! I missed u lotz... Do you Know that??
How are you now??? What have u been doing? I've soo many many things to talk to u...
But to tell the truth, I just wanna talk to u...
But I've got a feeling you are avoiding to meet me...
I am happy that you called n said you still love me, but I really wonder... R u intentionally avoiding to meet me?? Are you afraid that you cannot let go or otherwise?
But on my side, I just wanna meet you n talk to u... I dunnoe what we'll be talking but I just wanna us to hav a happy sharing session...
But whatever it is, just wanna to let u noe: I'll be there for u, be it frenz or lovers... cause you are an important existence to me=) N I promise to try my best to treasure n maintain this bond we have... I hope u feel the same way too!
These maybe words that I could nvr hav the chance to say to u...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I wonder Y people can't just stick to one partner?
Y in one's life, they would have to go through a few relationships?
Even if there are hardships n pain, shldn't 2 ppl go through all together?
I guess, I am still naive ba...
Though I did learn to let go n got relaxed, but that does not mean I dun doubt it...
Beside all these,
I am feeling dots over my MCQ test 2morrow which has 10 chapters and worth 7.5% marks... wth is RMIT thinking?
I have tons of work n projects to do, n is trying to do something to re-connect impt frenz... I guess I realise how busy david is... David, I am realli sorry that I misunderstood u, realli sorry. I'll promised to be nice:)
hmmm... I am Realli SLOW in understanding stuff... N when I understand, I have to admit I have a mixture of happy and sad feelings... Not till the extent of cryin, cause I guess I'm over with the crying period.
Somehow, I've walk slightly out of the circle and see a clearer picture.
I'm in love with this guy
Deeply in Love
For him, I'm willing to go to a great extent
I've tried my best... N i have no regrets for our relationship up till now...
Slowly considering the fact that our relationship might be straining, in order to avoid things getting sour, We decide to take a rest period( N I decide to see it as a break... cause it'll be better for me emotionally)
N slowly, I walk out of this circle n see a better picture...
Happy that u called n ask whether I'll wait for u...
Although I did say I'll wait... but I guess the real ans will be revealed when time goes by... maybe I will,maybe I wun... I dunnoe... same goes with u as well...
A bit sad is we have to be lovers with no communication... i guess its because of the current commitments you have...
What I wish for now is I could have a chance to go on a date with u... N do whatever I always wanted:)
But for now, I am starting to enjoy the solitude you are giving me... N perhaps, its time for me to know more frenz, enjoy my life n plan my own future:)
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Can't help but to be worried abt u...
I guess people get lost sometimes on their way to the future...
But no worries... I'll be there...
Jia you!!! Fighting!!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
I'm not that great...
I admit that I agree to take the gamble to see to which extent I could love someone...
I wanna see if I could love someone continuously for 5 years...
I wanna see if someone could love me continuously for 5 years too... whether this person exist or not...
No matter if you belong to me or not... Let me just be there... by your side, till you meet someone you like...
If there is such a girl, I would sincerely apologise to her N thank her for letting me to be with evan this period of time... Cause I know when she appear, its time for me to disappear...
And Evan... I thank you beforehand to be by my side till my right guy appear...
So let us be happy together for a little longer...
Friday, March 19, 2010
Yesterday night, evan call me... surprise surprise... I tot it was a dream...
We have a good chat... N I could sense that he is giving our relationship some serious serious thought. We decided to be still together with the potential of losing each other as well throughout these 5 years...
This is a bet.
I always believe that a bond between 2 person only happens once in a lifetime...So, I decided to take this gamble. Good Luck to myself!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Mummy is super worried when she noe me n evan broke up...
But I told her its alright cause the break up is a mutual agreement that now is not the time to date... We have our own dreams and work to pursue... and she agreed that this is a right choice.
I am coping surprising better than I though I would be... At this pace, maybe I'll start to move on and forget things... Although I am quite unwilling to, but I scared this small brain of mine cannot contain much things...
Maybe I'll forget a lot of things, and maybe I'll start to forget the feelings ba...
But nevertheless, I'll rememeber that I love someone whole-heartedly before, and I tried hard enough... So no regrets:)
Hopefully, he'll be happy and find someone who can love him 10times to 100 times more than me;)
I just hope that he'll be happy.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Dear...
Somewhere deep down in my heart, i feel that u might be hinting for a break-up or you feel that a break-up if better for us..
maybe you feel that you are the selfish one...
But can I still stay by yr side for a while more... even if its just a 'girlfriend' name?
Just let me be selfish for a short while and perharps the last time...
Sunday, March 7, 2010
My hubby is AWESOME Yesterday Night!!!
He sang This Love with his band mate, n seriously, the reorientation of the song 'This Love' is interesting... n apparently quite a number of people love it...
In the end, they got 2nd... which is good enough...
They would've gotta 1st if they allow multiple sms per person...
I got the video of it from john, and see it a few times...
But dunnoe y... I ended up tearing... haha...
My love taste bitter-sweet, yet I can't stop it...
Simply because you said 'I still love you'- that's what keeps me going on.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Finally, autumn concerto's last epi 21 came out... too short.. only 30 mins...
Then, PS man... not bad show...
Baka to test... this anime never failed to make me smile...
