This morning when I wake up... I've to face the fact that I've lost him.

There are thousands of words to say, things I wanted to do with him...

I dream again last night, that he say he's giving it all up...

I cried last night... cause things aren't going the way we want...

I am worried for him... cause I knoe he's deeply hurt too...

He's a victim, I'm a victim... everyone in this story are all the victims...

There is no right or wrong... just that everything took place earlier... which is bad enough...

All I ever wanted to do is to walk together with him, hand in hand... N both of us feeling happy...

But the situation have change, and things seems messy at this moment...

Evan... I hope you are feelin better...

God, what Have I done to deserve this? Is this what I deserve after all commitments and hard works?
I promise to be good, please let everyone be ok and happy again...
I dun like anyone to be hurt... be it John, Evan or that girl!