Today went shoppin n movie with Ah jie...

We watched how to train your dragon... its very der nice!!! Must Watch!!

Then we go shop shop in Ion, taka etc etc... n talk our hearts n lungs out... LOL...

I'll be learning driving next month as well as taking up Japanese classes with Yi xin, sylvia... n Qi jie may be joining...

This is the first time I go out with a guy n nvr ask him or tell him...
Maybe its because I've lost the right to, n maybe there's not a need to... either one... I could've predict his ans if I ever ask him... he would say: 'its up to you' or ' Ok, Enjoy...' or ' its your choice'... but whatever it is.. he will not object to it...

Qi jie invited me to go rendang with his sec sch frenz... N most prob, I'll be asking my Uni buddies over...
I guess... this time will be the same as the other times... Evan will not object to it or what...

Its realli a sad feeling which I dun need to ask him or inform him any longer... N its weird cause I feel sad over it...

The worst thing was: I dun even have the courage to SMS him or Call him any longer... lol... simply because I miss him too much... N I'm scared I'll be in tears right away the moment I hear his voice...
This is what I realise when qi jie ask me to call him... I simply couldn't...
I scared that I'll be disturbing him, I scared that I'll be waiting n expecting his replies, I scared that I'll be simply disappointed when there are no replies at all... N what I'm scared is... I'll rely on him all over again...
I should let him go... it's almost time to let him go...
The extend of missing him is too deep... its crazy... I dream of him almost every night... I dream of us talkin happily etc...

N now, talkin to him face to face is like something that might never came true...

But whatever it is, I hope you will be happy, N you must be happy... cause this is the route that you've chosen... N I'll respect your decision n wish you happiness...