Today, I saw a great performance by my mother... exploiting the ugliness of people...

Back in the world of reality,I feel stained. I am back to another self.
In this world, people are into fierce competition. Nothing comes out good as long as it has something to do with money.
My job: to prevent mishap happening on me n my mum.

Lots of the things happen in the past due to betrayal, backstab, jealousy, greed.
This world is filled with brutal truth.
I fight to keep any purity in my heart... as pressure is forcing their way in...

No one can be trusted in this other world.
I've seen too much betrayal and lies.
heartbreaks, tears, anger, sadness... I've been through it all and now, I'm only left with this feeling: numb

People who get near me in this other world has a motive. And usually, it's 80% due to money.

Pathetic.

Slowly my surroundings, the white sides are slowly turning dark grey areas. And I've to resort into tactics to either exploit them or to attack them, just to prevent myself getting hurt. Pretty selfish arh.

I mock at those who are filled with jealousy and put blame upon us. WTH.
I seriously dispise this sort of people.
Do you guys wanna see us drowning in troubled waters then you will start to stop all your nonscence?

If I ever become discapable... it's all thanks to you guys.
Thank god, I believe in something call benovelence... which goddess of mercy taught us. but keep in mind, I keep a knife at my back.

Disappointed. utter disappointed. Why can't people starting learning to be grateful with what they had, try not to be so selfish, try to treasure whatever they had.

Ever since I got backstab by her, it's over. My trust is over in that world. In this world, I still trust lots of people... N some of them, I trusted them no matter what happens... it's weird. My sister call me hypocrite at times, someone with 2 faces. I won't deny. Who don't?

I think I better go china to pray at the temple...
Need to cleanse my corrupted soul abit.