Welcome back! Good to see you back safe and sound, I whispered.
This is something I wanna tell you.
Down with heavy flu and fever plus cough...
I begin to think things through again and again.
Maybe I did something wrong just that I do not know.
I don't know.
I attend my sister graduation ceremony and try my best to look healthy...
When I enter the clinic... I have to wait for close to 2 hours to see the doctor.
I feel weary and sick.
Lots of things in my mind.
My brain feels heavy and feverish.
My heart feels aching.
I cannot be like this, I tell myself. If he knows this, its gonna be sad again.
Stay Strong my dear. Its only a fever.
But another side of me brings back memories.
Stop it. Don't think anymore. Just sleep.
And tears start rolling down as the struggling continues.
I am someone who knows when to stop when its not needed.